Electroshock tomorrow

Electroshock therapy has come a long way since its popularity in the 1940's, When broken bones weren't uncommon, among other injuries, and the treatment was done on conscious patients. It was really something to be nervous about, though it worked so they continued with it.

It still makes me nervous though. I have a treatment tomorrow, and I'm always a bit nervous about the anesthesia, that familiar burning sensation in my veins. I'm afraid I just won't wake up

I'm also not too happy about a few other things. For instance, my memory may as well not exist. For weeks after being treated I'm forgetting familiar names, the names of objects, what month it is, etc. This doesn't seem to happen as badly to most people. I'm just lucky~

But it's a sacrifice I make. Before I started electroshock therapy I was so depressed I wanted to die. I wasn't leaving my apartment. I just was taking my pills, eating, sleeping, and wishing I were dead. After just 3 treatments, about a week, I was doing good.

I'd recommend it to a select few. It's not for everyone, but it works.


Oh well, I've gotten go get my brain shocked tomorrow :) If you've got any questions about the treatment just ask!

An Introduction

So this is my blog, and I'm "Squid". Yes, some of my closest friends actually call me that.

I have this blog here . . . and I want it to be mainly about Bipolar disorder. My condition, your condition, treatment, self-treatment, or just about anything else. I hope we can get some good dicussions going here once things get rolling.

More on me: My real name is Matt, and I'm bipolar. Rapid cycling bipolar. Unofficially, an ultraradian cycler. Lately I've been switching moods drastically about three times a day. My treatment has been going on for the past six years with little success. I've been doing electroshock therapy for the past 4 months with mediocre sustained success.

It just seems like nothing works real well.
Do you find that's the case too?